Much like you, humanity harbours unresolved feelings of anger at others for wrongs. Neither you nor I are to blame for being a victim of circumstances. Accept that and the fact that the fate of people are in God’s hands and that you can influence the world even if imperceptibly to a positive trend just in your behavior. You are in control of your surroundings. Ignore those aspects that make you feel scared or if possible see how this can be changed for the better as favourable circumstances make you happy, but unfavourable circumstances allow you to become a stronger person. Let that be a lesson for you not to let other people’s spiteful actions in the past continue to make you unhappy at present as only someone that’s desperately unhappy with their own life will attempt to make the next person unhappy. You are my dear friend and I just want you to be happy as I try to be happy despite derision. As is said in Proverbs 15.28 gossip is spread by wicked people. They stir up trouble and break up friendships.